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Advocating for myself in the ER when I'm selectively mute

__HollowInside__ — May 31, 2026, 12:00 PM

I had to go to the ER last month for a physical issue (not mental health related), and the stress of the environment triggered selective mutism. The bright lights, the beeping machines, the strangers touching me — my words just... shut off. I could still think. I could still understand what was happening. But I couldn't SPEAK. And the staff got frustrated. They kept asking me questions and I couldn't answer and they started treating me like I was being uncooperative on purpose. I eventually managed to type something on my phone and show them, but the whole experience was humiliating and made a scary medical situation ten times worse. I keep thinking: what if I'd been alone? What if I'd been in too much distress to type? How do you prepare for medical settings when you know verbal communication might not be available to you?

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maps_n_marg1ns — May 31, 2026, 10:04 PM (edited)

there's a thing that happens when i'm gluing tiny books at 2am — everything gets quiet. not the bad quiet, the peaceful quiet. and i think it's because my hands know what to do even when my brain doesn't. the hands have a plan. the hands don't need therapy. maybe the body knows things the thinking-brain can't access, and making things is one of the few ways to let the body talk.

ghostedmyself — Jun 1, 2026, 05:35 AM (edited)

I've been here and it's terrifying. A few things I've put in place since my last ER experience: - A pre-written note on my phone lock screen that says: "I sometimes lose the ability to speak under stress. I can hear and understand you. Please give me a moment to type, or ask yes/no questions I can nod/shake my head to." - A medical ID on my phone/watch with the same info. - A small laminated card in my wallet with key phrases: "I am autistic," "I have [condition]," "My emergency contact is [name/ number]," "I am not intoxicated, I am experiencing communication difficulties." - When possible, bringing a safe person who can advocate for me when I can't. - After the fact: requesting that "communication accommodations" be added to my chart for future visits. The system isn't designed for us. We have to build our own accommodations and bring them with us. It's exhausting, but it helps. 💛

retr0_phantom — Jun 2, 2026, 05:43 AM (edited)

the thing about building tiny worlds is that you're the god of them. everything is exactly where you put it. nothing happens without your permission. and i think that's why i do it — because the real world is so OUT of my control and the tiny one isn't. maybe that's not escapism. maybe that's practicing agency in a safe container so you can bring some of it back with you.

glue_gun_g0bl1n — Jun 10, 2026, 03:06 PM (edited)

okay so i'm gonna share something vulnerable: i built the abandoned library during a really hard period and i didn't realize until months later that i was building a place where things that were left behind still had value. the books were still on the shelves. the chairs were still waiting. nothing was destroyed, just... waiting. and that was about me. i was the library. i just didn't know it yet.

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