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softskymarin [admin] — Feb 11, 2026, 09:25 PM

Oh I have so many. The biggest one: my "easygoing" personality. I thought I was just chill and flexible. Turns out I was dissociating from my own preferences because expressing them as a child was punished. I'm not easygoing. I'm disconnected from my own wants. Learning to hear what I actually want (instead of what will keep everyone else comfortable) has been the work of years.

overstimulatedowl — Feb 12, 2026, 08:37 AM

apologizing. for everything. all the time. someone bumps into me and i say sorry. someone else makes a mistake and i apologize. i didn't realize until recently that the constant apologizing was a fawn response from growing up in a house where keeping the peace was my job.

lilpawz — Feb 12, 2026, 05:29 PM

my "independence." i never ask for help. i figured out how to do everything myself. thought i was just strong and capable. turns out i learned at like 6 years old that nobody was coming to help me so i better figure it out alone. that's not independence. that's abandonment.

neuronnoodle — Feb 12, 2026, 05:42 PM

The hypervigilance one is so real. I can walk into a room and tell you within 30 seconds who's tense, who's upset, who's about to have a conflict. I thought it was intuition or emotional intelligence. It's not — it's a survival skill I developed because my safety as a child depended on accurately reading the emotional temperature of adults who were unpredictable. That's not a gift. That's a scar.

raccoonking — Feb 13, 2026, 02:29 PM

i have a really hard time with people being kind to me. compliments feel like lies. help feels like a trap. if someone does something nice for me, i immediately try to figure out what they want in return. turns out that's not skepticism — it's that kindness as a child was always transactional or weaponized.

marzipandreams — Feb 13, 2026, 09:04 PM

I over-explain. Every decision, every preference, every boundary — I provide a full thesis defense. I thought I was just being "clear" or "considerate." Nope. It's because my boundaries were never respected unless I could justify them to a hostile audience. I'm still defending myself to parents who aren't even in the room.

tentativefern — Feb 14, 2026, 12:56 AM

I make myself small in conversations. I don't take up space. I sit on the edge of chairs. I cross my legs and arms and make myself as compact as possible. I thought it was just "how I sit" but my therapist pointed out that I'm literally making myself smaller to avoid detection. Like prey.

crayoncryptid — Feb 14, 2026, 03:33 PM

i flinch at loud noises and sudden movements. not in a dramatic way, just a tiny flinch. always thought i was just "jumpy." recent therapy revelation: there's a reason my body learned to brace for impact. i'm not jumpy. i'm hypervigilant.

noodlearms — Feb 15, 2026, 05:15 AM

@glitterglue the "what do you want for dinner" thing!!! i've been in therapy for two years and just realized this last month. i don't know what i want because i was never allowed to want things. now when someone asks me a preference question i literally draw a blank.

ghostedmyself — Feb 15, 2026, 06:23 AM (edited)

I'm good in a crisis. Like, eerily calm. Car accident? I'm the one calling 911 and directing traffic. Medical emergency? I'm steady and clear-headed. Everyone thinks it's a strength. But it's because I learned to dissociate from my own fear at a very young age. I'm not calm — I'm disconnected. The panic comes later, when I'm alone.

recoveringparentified — Feb 15, 2026, 10:09 AM

Reading everyone's responses, I'm overwhelmed in the best way. All these things we thought were "just how we are" — they're survival adaptations. They kept us alive. And now maybe we don't need them anymore. Or at least we get to CHOOSE whether to keep them, instead of being controlled by them. Thank you all. 💛

sleepynoodlehut7777 — Apr 5, 2026, 01:58 PM (edited)

Oh I have so many. The biggest one: my "easygoing" personality. I thought I was just chill and flexible. Turns out I was dissociating from my own preferences because expressing them as a child was punished. I'm not easygoing. I'm disconnected from my own wants. Learning to hear what I actually want (instead of what will keep everyone else comfortable) has been the work of years.

dino_nuggie_dad — Apr 16, 2026, 07:12 PM (edited)

@lil_pawz "That's not independence. That's abandonment." This rewired something in my brain just now.

wonkybird1487 — Apr 19, 2026, 02:42 AM (edited)

The hypervigilance one is so real. I can walk into a room and tell you within 30 seconds who's tense, who's upset, who's about to have a conflict. I thought it was intuition or emotional intelligence. It's not — it's a survival skill I developed because my safety as a child depended on accurately reading the emotional temperature of adults who were unpredictable. That's not a gift. That's a scar.

dreamytulip04114 — Apr 24, 2026, 09:27 AM (edited)

I make myself small in conversations. I don't take up space. I sit on the edge of chairs. I cross my legs and arms and make myself as compact as possible. I thought it was just "how I sit" but my therapist pointed out that I'm literally making myself smaller to avoid detection. Like prey.

twinklypickle325 — May 14, 2026, 03:54 AM (edited)

i have a really hard time with people being kind to me. compliments feel like lies. help feels like a trap. if someone does something nice for me, i immediately try to figure out what they want in return. turns out that's not skepticism — it's that kindness as a child was always transactional or weaponized.

fuzzyladybugcorner53498 — May 21, 2026, 01:46 PM (edited)

I over-explain. Every decision, every preference, every boundary — I provide a full thesis defense. I thought I was just being "clear" or "considerate." Nope. It's because my boundaries were never respected unless I could justify them to a hostile audience. I'm still defending myself to parents who aren't even in the room.

grumpytoast9551 — May 25, 2026, 12:49 PM (edited)

i flinch at loud noises and sudden movements. not in a dramatic way, just a tiny flinch. always thought i was just "jumpy." recent therapy revelation: there's a reason my body learned to brace for impact. i'm not jumpy. i'm hypervigilant.

peppyunicornpatch4182 — Jun 17, 2026, 11:34 AM

i can't identify what i want until everyone else has chosen first. "what do you want for dinner?" "i don't know, what do you want?" i genuinely thought i was just flexible. turns out my wants were dismissed or mocked so consistently as a kid that i learned to stop having them.

sneezysnackspot9819 — Jun 25, 2026, 08:08 PM (edited)

@glitterglue the "what do you want for dinner" thing!!! i've been in therapy for two years and just realized this last month. i don't know what i want because i was never allowed to want things. now when someone asks me a preference question i literally draw a blank.

floppymangonest843 — Jul 13, 2026, 11:38 PM (edited)

I'm good in a crisis. Like, eerily calm. Car accident? I'm the one calling 911 and directing traffic. Medical emergency? I'm steady and clear-headed. Everyone thinks it's a strength. But it's because I learned to dissociate from my own fear at a very young age. I'm not calm — I'm disconnected. The panic comes later, when I'm alone.

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